The sense of realisation dawns on you, throughout the course of the day, the realisation of what you’ve actually done. A sudden sense of clarity, that brings with it some undefinable overwhelming emotion. All you can feel is sad. And final. And all you can see is futility? And then you cry. For no reason. Like an idiot over-emotional girl ? Today is one of those days.
I’m currently sitting in the midst of an *office party* at my desk, listening to Neko Case, while everyone else chit chats with co workers. I’m staying cos there’s alcohol, and being around other people (even if you’re not talking to them) makes the drinking with purpose seem less bad….
I don’t know what’s with me today. But it doesn’t seem to be shifting.
